28.12.12

TWO YEARS AND NOT KNOWING

Today is the 25th of December! That means I’ve been working at the same company for exactly two years and twenty-five days. Hurrah!
I feel pretty proud of that. I never thought I’d be able to stay here long enough for my co-workers to even remember my name. I’m not the most patient person. In fact, I’m not patient— at all. But I feel like for the first time, I can include that on the “special skills” part of my resume.
I’m trying to remember the person I was two years ago. That may not be a very long time. But I remember that kid, having been jobless and cocooned in the bedroom all day long for almost a year, looking at her self-esteem plummeting. I remember her being clueless of what she wants to do with her life and how that uncertainty was so frightening for her.
Now if I could only tell her, It’s okay not to know.

(Cross-posted from Tumblr.)